To Grow Up – As Bill Sees It Meditation #330

Those adolescent urges that so many of us have for complete approval, utter security, and perfect romance—urges quite appropriate to age seventeen—prove to be an impossible way of life at forty-seven or fifty-seven. Since A.A. began, I’ve taken huge wallops in all these areas because of my failure to grow up, emotionally and spiritually. ‹‹Continue reading “To Grow Up – As Bill Sees It Meditation #330”

Love + Rationality = Growth – As Bill Sees It Meditation #294

It seems to me that the primary object of any human being is to grow, as God intended, that being the nature of all growing things. Our search must be for what reality we can find, which includes the best definition and feeling of love that we can acquire. If the capability of loving isContinue reading “Love + Rationality = Growth – As Bill Sees It Meditation #294”

Pain-Killer or Pain-Healer – As Bill Sees It Meditation #291

“I believe that when we were active alcoholics we drank mostly to kill pain of one kind or another—physical or emotional or psychic. Of course, everybody has a cracking point, and I suppose you reached yours—hence, the resort once more to the bottle. “If I were you, I wouldn’t heap devastating blame on myself forContinue reading “Pain-Killer or Pain-Healer – As Bill Sees It Meditation #291”

“Perfect” Humility – As Bill Sees It Meditation #106

For myself, I try to seek out the truest definition of humility that I can. This will not be the perfect definition, because I shall always be imperfect. At this writing, I would choose one like this: “Absolute humility would consist of a state of complete freedom from myself, freedom from all the claims thatContinue reading ““Perfect” Humility – As Bill Sees It Meditation #106″

A Beginning in Springtime – AA Grapevine April 1964 by M.C. Reno, NV

Watch the new life and feel its awakening EACH spring, as I watch the green shoots in the earth struggle towards the light, I am reminded of another spring and another struggle. As I watch the buds on the trees begin to open, as if they were awakening from a long sleep, I am remindedContinue reading “A Beginning in Springtime – AA Grapevine April 1964 by M.C. Reno, NV”

Happiness Overrated? – Grapevine Article August 2006 Jim W

I sometimes find myself irritable, restless, discontented, or depressed for no apparent reason at all. Today, in my recovery, it usually doesn’t take long before I suffer from ill attitudes or behaviors directly linked to what I describe as being disconnected, or in a stagnant spiritual pool. At this point, I usually launch a personalContinue reading “Happiness Overrated? – Grapevine Article August 2006 Jim W”

Spiritual Agony – Grapevine Article February 2001 by Holly H also published in AA Grapevine Book entitled ‘Emotional Sobriety’

MAKING AN AMENDS to the murderer of a precious friend was the most terrifying prospect — next to taking another drink — that I have faced in sobriety . But it also turned out to be the most liberating action I have ever taken sober and the opportunity for which I am most grateful .Continue reading “Spiritual Agony – Grapevine Article February 2001 by Holly H also published in AA Grapevine Book entitled ‘Emotional Sobriety’”

True Independence of the Spirit – As Bill Sees It (Meditation #26)

The more we become willing to depend upon a Higher Power, the more independent we actually are. Therefore, dependence as A.A. practices it is really a means of gaining true independence of the spirit. At the level of everyday living, it is startling to discover how dependent we really are, and how unconscious of thatContinue reading “True Independence of the Spirit – As Bill Sees It (Meditation #26)”

Satisfactions of Right Living As Bill Sees It # 254

How wonderful is the feeling that we do not have to be specially distinguished among our fellows in order to be useful and profoundly happy . Not many of us can be leaders of prominence , nor do we wish to be . Service gladly rendered , obligations squarely met , troubles well accepted orContinue reading “Satisfactions of Right Living As Bill Sees It # 254”

Isolation – Are You Kidding? Ruth H. Grapevine July 2020

Who said change is easy? Staying sober and sane through a health crisis requires all the Steps she’s got Without the support of my Twelve Step programs, I don’t know that I could navigate the kind of change that’s happening now. As it became obvious that COVID-19 was going to impact our world and myContinue reading “Isolation – Are You Kidding? Ruth H. Grapevine July 2020”