My Cheated Heart – Grapevine Article September 2002 by Kellie E.

An exile in isolation finds that no one has to hurt alone Each of us entering the doors of AA has been filled with more than enough loneliness. My response was a stoic attempt to neither admit nor share that pain. My silent tears became an impenetrable wall of emotional isolation–and only alcohol was allowedContinue reading “My Cheated Heart – Grapevine Article September 2002 by Kellie E.”

Lily, Our Friend – Grapevine Article February 2021 by Andy A.

As Andy and his buddy share love with a struggling home group member, her story keeps it mighty real About 20 minutes after 8:00 one Saturday, while sitting in my morning AA meeting, my mind kept wandering to thoughts of a friend in the program. I’ll call her Lily. A little more than a weekContinue reading “Lily, Our Friend – Grapevine Article February 2021 by Andy A.”

Manufacturing Misery – Grapevine Article April 1993 by Bill A.

I must admit that there are parts of the Big Book I’ve never read. For instance, as a singularly single, bachelor alcoholic, now past 40, I have never felt it necessary to peruse chapter nine–The Family Afterward. But, as in so many other cases when I’ve cunningly cut corners, I also shortchanged myself. My sponsorContinue reading “Manufacturing Misery – Grapevine Article April 1993 by Bill A.”

Boredom Ambushes the Unwary – Grapevine Article April 1950 by J.F.

PAGING Solomon with all his wisdom! What makes some of us take that first drink? We can get as many answers to that perennial question as there are unfortunate slipees. It has been my experience that boredom sets an emotional trap for all of us. The eager beaver in AA, full of inspirational fire and fervor, veryContinue reading “Boredom Ambushes the Unwary – Grapevine Article April 1950 by J.F.”

At Last No Longer Apart – Grapevine Article November 1967 by F.M.

This is the third article in the Grapevine’s series by authors of the personal histories in the Big Book, Alcoholics Anonymous. The Big Book was published in 1939; the revised, enlarged version came out in 1955. Now, the author of “Stars Don’t Fall,” page 401 in the revised edition, reports on the vital experience–some of it roughContinue reading “At Last No Longer Apart – Grapevine Article November 1967 by F.M.”

Amends – Grapevine Article October 1965 by Dr. Hal S.

There is more to taking the Eighth and Ninth Steps than squaring things with other people A LITTLE rigorous honesty will reveal to any alcoholic that he “roared like a tornado through the lives of other people.” But when you start making a list of people you have harmed do you put your own nameContinue reading “Amends – Grapevine Article October 1965 by Dr. Hal S.”

It Takes A Realist To Believe In Miracles – Grapevine Article February 1986 by L.O.

WHEN I FIRST JOINED the AA Fellowship, I was told that alcoholism is a disease. I could easily relate to that concept and be at home with it, for I have lived with a severe, chronic disease since infancy. At the age of sixteen months I was diagnosed at Duke University School of Endocrinology asContinue reading “It Takes A Realist To Believe In Miracles – Grapevine Article February 1986 by L.O.”

Unmanageable, What’s That? – Grapevine Article January 2016 by Ted K.

He stopped drinking, so why did his life seem to be getting worse ? STEP ONE: We admitted we were powerless over alcohol—that our lives had become unmanageable. I began drinking when I was 15. Alcohol was fun and made me feel a part of the crowd. It removed my inhibitions and my feelings ofContinue reading “Unmanageable, What’s That? – Grapevine Article January 2016 by Ted K.”

Identifying Fear – Daily Reflection July 6th

The chief activator of our defects has been self-centered fear. . . .— TWELVE STEPS AND TWELVE TRADITIONS, p. 76 When I feel uncomfortable, irritated, or depressed, I look for fear. This “evil and corroding thread” is the root of my distress: Fear of failure; fear of others’ opinions; fear of harm, and many otherContinue reading “Identifying Fear – Daily Reflection July 6th”

Emotional Pain – Grapevine Article February 1997 by C.H.

Shortly after I came into the Fellowship of Alcoholics Anonymous in November 1984, I remarked to my sponsor that I had no memory of ever before experiencing the feeling that a knife was being slowly twisted in my gut. But I’ve since learned a lot about what causes most of the emotional pain I experience.Continue reading “Emotional Pain – Grapevine Article February 1997 by C.H.”