My Cheated Heart – Grapevine Article September 2002 by Kellie E.

An exile in isolation finds that no one has to hurt alone Each of us entering the doors of AA has been filled with more than enough loneliness. My response was a stoic attempt to neither admit nor share that pain. My silent tears became an impenetrable wall of emotional isolation–and only alcohol was allowedContinue reading “My Cheated Heart – Grapevine Article September 2002 by Kellie E.”

Thank God for Despair – Grapevine Article June 1965 by E.M.

. . . the unease that makes us want to do a better job of living – From the June 1965 Grapevine IT IS AMAZING and a little depressing to see so many of our members drive themselves like madmen for perfect peace of mind and absolute serenity. Bags under their eyes, frowns on theirContinue reading “Thank God for Despair – Grapevine Article June 1965 by E.M.”

Operation Acceptance: Moving from Rage to Letting Go – Grapevine Article April 2005 by Anonymous

Three months before my ninth sobriety birthday in AA, my uncle beat my grandmother to death. My family covered it up. For approximately a year following her death, I experienced a terrible emotional relapse. Filled with rage at my uncle and at AA, I could barely sit through an entire meeting. My uncle and IContinue reading “Operation Acceptance: Moving from Rage to Letting Go – Grapevine Article April 2005 by Anonymous”

In the Grip Of Rage – Grapevine Article September 2003 by Marc S.

He became his father and lived to know his pain firsthand I was eleven years old the night I was awakened by a woman’s screams and the thud of a body slamming into the other side of my bedroom wall. That sound is distinct and sickening, etched into my auditory memory to this day. AnyoneContinue reading “In the Grip Of Rage – Grapevine Article September 2003 by Marc S.”

Clarity – Grapevine Article September 1975 by S.B.

IF YOU HAD to choose one word to describe your sobriety, which would you choose? There are so many marvelous benefits to being sober, but if I had to put it into one word, I would select “clarity.” The meaning of “clarity” has changed slightly. In the seventeenth century, according to the Oxford English Dictionary,Continue reading “Clarity – Grapevine Article September 1975 by S.B.”

Moment of Clarity, Act of Providence – Grapevine Article by Joe C.

He wanted to die because nothing could be worse than the life he was living. But the cop who arrested him had other ideas This particular run has lasted about four and a half years since I picked up that first drink. I had left AA after 11 months of clean time knowing it couldContinue reading “Moment of Clarity, Act of Providence – Grapevine Article by Joe C.”

Surrender – Grapevine Article by Trisha C.

Letting go of character defects, it turns out, is hard work Surrender is a very common word and a necessary action in the program of Alcoholics Anonymous. This word sounds so absolute and can mean something different to each person who daily attempts, whether successful or not, to let go of the things, thoughts, persons,Continue reading “Surrender – Grapevine Article by Trisha C.”

Guilt Is A Cunning Weapon – Grapevine Article May 1974 by H.M.

It can destroy us, or it can help us relate to our fellow alcoholic I AM THE lucky one, enjoying an incredible vacation high up in the Alps, surrounded by snowcapped mountains, flowering meadows, and crystal-clear brooks. The gift of unrushed thinking, of meditation, presents itself in such an environment. It brings happiness and peaceContinue reading “Guilt Is A Cunning Weapon – Grapevine Article May 1974 by H.M.”

Knowledge Is Not Enough – Grapevine Article April 1953 by H.G.

But the actual or potential alcoholic, with hardly an exception, will be absolutely unable to stop drinking on the basis of self-knowledge (Big Book, page 39) THIS is not the story of my drinking career, which pray God is over. That story would be more lurid than some, not so shocking as others. A typicalContinue reading “Knowledge Is Not Enough – Grapevine Article April 1953 by H.G.”

The Dry Drunk Waltz – Grapevine Article by Julie H.

She learned the dance of anger, frustration, and denial from her father, but replaced it with the sweeter music of AA It wasn’t till my father threw my mother’s mother across the kitchen and broke her arm that he was forced to stop drinking. He had grown up with a very drunk and abusive fatherContinue reading “The Dry Drunk Waltz – Grapevine Article by Julie H.”