Self-Pity Can Kill – Grapevine Article February 1973 by J.W.

We can weep, whine, or get drunk–or we can learn to accept OVER AND OVER, through the gaiety of the preholiday season in December 1965, I chanted this litany of despair: “I gave all I had to give, and it wasn’t enough.” And on Christmas night, I made a drunken and almost successful suicide attempt.Continue reading “Self-Pity Can Kill – Grapevine Article February 1973 by J.W.”

It Takes Practice to Be Human – Grapevine Article December 1977 by M.B.

Constant work with the Tenth Step shows us what we are and what we can become DURING MY drinking days, it seemed that I was either a god or a devil–but never human. I was either so grandly above everyone else that they were unworthy of my love or so desperately below the level ofContinue reading “It Takes Practice to Be Human – Grapevine Article December 1977 by M.B.”

A Reason for Gratitude – Grapevine Article August 1996 by Carolene B.

It’s 9:30 p.m. I’m walking across the nearly deserted parking lot of the local plant where I work. Every bone, muscle, and nerve in my body is exhausted and aching. I pick one foot up and have to make myself put it down and take another step. My breath is short and I have aContinue reading “A Reason for Gratitude – Grapevine Article August 1996 by Carolene B.”

Lily, Our Friend – Grapevine Article February 2021 by Andy A.

As Andy and his buddy share love with a struggling home group member, her story keeps it mighty real About 20 minutes after 8:00 one Saturday, while sitting in my morning AA meeting, my mind kept wandering to thoughts of a friend in the program. I’ll call her Lily. A little more than a weekContinue reading “Lily, Our Friend – Grapevine Article February 2021 by Andy A.”

Thank God for Despair – Grapevine Article June 1965 by E.M.

. . . the unease that makes us want to do a better job of living – From the June 1965 Grapevine IT IS AMAZING and a little depressing to see so many of our members drive themselves like madmen for perfect peace of mind and absolute serenity. Bags under their eyes, frowns on theirContinue reading “Thank God for Despair – Grapevine Article June 1965 by E.M.”

Manufacturing Misery – Grapevine Article April 1993 by Bill A.

I must admit that there are parts of the Big Book I’ve never read. For instance, as a singularly single, bachelor alcoholic, now past 40, I have never felt it necessary to peruse chapter nine–The Family Afterward. But, as in so many other cases when I’ve cunningly cut corners, I also shortchanged myself. My sponsorContinue reading “Manufacturing Misery – Grapevine Article April 1993 by Bill A.”

Boredom Ambushes the Unwary – Grapevine Article April 1950 by J.F.

PAGING Solomon with all his wisdom! What makes some of us take that first drink? We can get as many answers to that perennial question as there are unfortunate slipees. It has been my experience that boredom sets an emotional trap for all of us. The eager beaver in AA, full of inspirational fire and fervor, veryContinue reading “Boredom Ambushes the Unwary – Grapevine Article April 1950 by J.F.”

A Better Fit – Grapevine Article March 2020 by Don S.

How 10 aching toes became a powerful lesson about the dangers of being right My first interaction with a Higher Power was terse. I had reached the end of my rope, having attempted sobriety for a period of about 19 months. I had relapsed and suffered through 10 months of incomprehensible demoralization. I was genuinelyContinue reading “A Better Fit – Grapevine Article March 2020 by Don S.”

Moment of Clarity, Act of Providence – Grapevine Article by Joe C.

He wanted to die because nothing could be worse than the life he was living. But the cop who arrested him had other ideas This particular run has lasted about four and a half years since I picked up that first drink. I had left AA after 11 months of clean time knowing it couldContinue reading “Moment of Clarity, Act of Providence – Grapevine Article by Joe C.”

At Last No Longer Apart – Grapevine Article November 1967 by F.M.

This is the third article in the Grapevine’s series by authors of the personal histories in the Big Book, Alcoholics Anonymous. The Big Book was published in 1939; the revised, enlarged version came out in 1955. Now, the author of “Stars Don’t Fall,” page 401 in the revised edition, reports on the vital experience–some of it roughContinue reading “At Last No Longer Apart – Grapevine Article November 1967 by F.M.”