With Complete Abandon – Grapevine Article by Mary

After many relapses and false starts she heard something in a meeting that changed everything I’ve been introducing myself as, “I’m Mary and I’m an alcoholic” for 27 years, yet I have just begun my fifth year of continuous sobriety. My journey has been amazing, and my life is more joyful and hopeful than everContinue reading “With Complete Abandon – Grapevine Article by Mary”

Burn Into The Consciousness – Big Book Page 98

The men who cry for money and shelter before conquering alcohol, are on the wrong track. Yet we do go to great extremes to provide each other with these very things, when such action is warranted. This may seem inconsistent, but we think it is not. It is not the matter of giving that isContinue reading “Burn Into The Consciousness – Big Book Page 98”

A Vision For You – The Problem – Big Book Page 151

For most normal folks, drinking means conviviality, companionship and colorful imagination. It means release from care, boredom and worry. It is joyous intimacy with friends and a feeling that life is good. But not so with us in those last days of heavy drinking. The old pleasures were gone. They were but memories. Never couldContinue reading “A Vision For You – The Problem – Big Book Page 151”

Way Out Of Depression – As Bill Sees It #308

During acute depression, avoid trying to set your whole life in order all at once. If you take on assignments so heavy that you are sure to fail in them at the moment, then you are allowing yourself to be tricked by your unconscious. Thus you will continue to make sure of your failure, andContinue reading “Way Out Of Depression – As Bill Sees It #308”

Sidelined By Remorse – Grapevine Article Sept 2010 by J.M.

After his brother’s suicide, he blames himself and drops out of AA One thing I have learned in AA is that an event that seems insignificant at the time can have monumental effects later. Nothing, it seems, is quite as it seems. Thirty-four years ago I was new in the Fellowship, full of fear, andContinue reading “Sidelined By Remorse – Grapevine Article Sept 2010 by J.M.”

Chill Wind of the Soul – Grapevine Article July 2003 by Hank M

He thought he was the only one who felt so empty and alone In the days before I took my first drink, I remember seeing a photograph of a renowned existentialist philosopher. He was standing on a tiny ice floe, floating in a vast and otherwise empty sea, totally, absolutely alone. I remember thinking, evenContinue reading “Chill Wind of the Soul – Grapevine Article July 2003 by Hank M”

We Should Not Think Too Ill Of Ourselves – Twelve & Twelve Step 11 Page 105

“All of us, without exception, pass through times when we can pray only with the greatest exertion of will. Occasionally we go even further than this. We are seized with a rebellion so sickening that we simply won’t pray. When these things happen we should not think too ill of ourselves. We should simply resumeContinue reading “We Should Not Think Too Ill Of Ourselves – Twelve & Twelve Step 11 Page 105”

Yes to Sobriety – Grapevine Article Web Exclusive by Ken K.

In the aftermath of the tragic death of a sponsee, his sponsor reflects back on life, service, and relapse in AA “Ken, I think something bad happened to Dan.” With those words, spoken softly over the telephone by a fellow recovering alcoholic early one evening last spring, my worst fears as an AA sponsor beganContinue reading “Yes to Sobriety – Grapevine Article Web Exclusive by Ken K.”

It’s All Your Fault! – December 1984 Grapevine Article By M.S.

I CAME INTO AA reluctantly, with real reservations, especially in emotional areas of my life. When I heard that even righteous indignation was something alcoholics could not afford to indulge in, I felt not only puzzled but put-upon by the very group that I had hoped could help me. After all, what was I supposedContinue reading “It’s All Your Fault! – December 1984 Grapevine Article By M.S.”

Desperate on New Year’s Eve – Grapevine Article By Anonymous December 2015

There he sat, all alone feeling sorry for himself … would he drink? Or would he reach out? After picking up a nine-month chip, I felt great. I had a sponsor, went to meetings every day and had worked up to the Ninth Step. This is where I stopped. After unsuccessful attempts to make amendsContinue reading “Desperate on New Year’s Eve – Grapevine Article By Anonymous December 2015”