Chill Wind of the Soul – Grapevine Article July 2003 by Hank M

He thought he was the only one who felt so empty and alone In the days before I took my first drink, I remember seeing a photograph of a renowned existentialist philosopher. He was standing on a tiny ice floe, floating in a vast and otherwise empty sea, totally, absolutely alone. I remember thinking, evenContinue reading “Chill Wind of the Soul – Grapevine Article July 2003 by Hank M”

We Should Not Think Too Ill Of Ourselves – Twelve & Twelve Step 11 Page 105

“All of us, without exception, pass through times when we can pray only with the greatest exertion of will. Occasionally we go even further than this. We are seized with a rebellion so sickening that we simply won’t pray. When these things happen we should not think too ill of ourselves. We should simply resumeContinue reading “We Should Not Think Too Ill Of Ourselves – Twelve & Twelve Step 11 Page 105”

Yes to Sobriety – Grapevine Article Web Exclusive by Ken K.

In the aftermath of the tragic death of a sponsee, his sponsor reflects back on life, service, and relapse in AA “Ken, I think something bad happened to Dan.” With those words, spoken softly over the telephone by a fellow recovering alcoholic early one evening last spring, my worst fears as an AA sponsor beganContinue reading “Yes to Sobriety – Grapevine Article Web Exclusive by Ken K.”

It’s All Your Fault! – December 1984 Grapevine Article By M.S.

I CAME INTO AA reluctantly, with real reservations, especially in emotional areas of my life. When I heard that even righteous indignation was something alcoholics could not afford to indulge in, I felt not only puzzled but put-upon by the very group that I had hoped could help me. After all, what was I supposedContinue reading “It’s All Your Fault! – December 1984 Grapevine Article By M.S.”

Desperate on New Year’s Eve – Grapevine Article By Anonymous December 2015

There he sat, all alone feeling sorry for himself … would he drink? Or would he reach out? After picking up a nine-month chip, I felt great. I had a sponsor, went to meetings every day and had worked up to the Ninth Step. This is where I stopped. After unsuccessful attempts to make amendsContinue reading “Desperate on New Year’s Eve – Grapevine Article By Anonymous December 2015”

The Back-Slider – Big Book Story from 1st Edition by Walter B

When I was graduated from high-school the World War was on in full blast. I was too young for the army but old enough to man a machine for the production of the means of wholesale destruction. I became a machine-hand at high wages. Machinery appealed to me anyway, because I had always wanted toContinue reading “The Back-Slider – Big Book Story from 1st Edition by Walter B”

5th Step – Clarity pg 59

Because we were still bothered by fear , self-pity, and hurt feelings , it was probable that we couldn’t appraise ourselves fairly at all. Too much guilt and remorse might cause us to dramatize and exaggerate our shortcomings. Or anger or pride might be the smoke screen under which we were hiding some of ourContinue reading “5th Step – Clarity pg 59”