From hallucinations to hope If I close my eyes, I can still feel the sting of cold sleet hitting my face as I walked out of the emergency room that morning. I can still feel the bitter taste in my mouth, and the waves of nausea that rolled through my stomach. I told the emergencyContinue reading “A Christmas Carol – Grapevine Article August 2007 by Kim M.”
Category Archives: Disease
Rebel Without A Cause – Grapevine Article October 2009 by Ray A.
My parents abandoned me while I was still a baby, after my father put a bullet in my mother’s back. Raised by older relatives who were illiterate and very poor, and never feeling accepted by my foster father, I grew up with a sense of insecurity, fear and, at times, shame. I was 10 whenContinue reading “Rebel Without A Cause – Grapevine Article October 2009 by Ray A.”
What’s Our Problem: Lack Of Power- Practice These Principles – Ray A.
As we start again our journey through the Big Book, it may be good to be reminded why the decision was made to begin the Big Book with the ’Doctor’s Opinion’. The explanation below relates why Bill came to believe it essential that this ‘new idea’ of alcoholism as an incurable, fatal, progressive disease beContinue reading “What’s Our Problem: Lack Of Power- Practice These Principles – Ray A.”
The Voice On The Tape – Grapevine Article January 2004 by Gay B.
After almost two decades, she stumbles upon the woman who saved her life THAT voice, I thought. That’s the woman on the tape! I was sitting in a noon meeting that I had not attended in three months. I had been the secretary but had had to give it up because of a conflict withContinue reading “The Voice On The Tape – Grapevine Article January 2004 by Gay B.”
My Cheated Heart – Grapevine Article September 2002 by Kellie E.
An exile in isolation finds that no one has to hurt alone Each of us entering the doors of AA has been filled with more than enough loneliness. My response was a stoic attempt to neither admit nor share that pain. My silent tears became an impenetrable wall of emotional isolation–and only alcohol was allowedContinue reading “My Cheated Heart – Grapevine Article September 2002 by Kellie E.”
Thank God for Despair – Grapevine Article June 1965 by E.M.
. . . the unease that makes us want to do a better job of living – From the June 1965 Grapevine IT IS AMAZING and a little depressing to see so many of our members drive themselves like madmen for perfect peace of mind and absolute serenity. Bags under their eyes, frowns on theirContinue reading “Thank God for Despair – Grapevine Article June 1965 by E.M.”
Operation Acceptance: Moving from Rage to Letting Go – Grapevine Article April 2005 by Anonymous
Three months before my ninth sobriety birthday in AA, my uncle beat my grandmother to death. My family covered it up. For approximately a year following her death, I experienced a terrible emotional relapse. Filled with rage at my uncle and at AA, I could barely sit through an entire meeting. My uncle and IContinue reading “Operation Acceptance: Moving from Rage to Letting Go – Grapevine Article April 2005 by Anonymous”
In the Grip Of Rage – Grapevine Article September 2003 by Marc S.
He became his father and lived to know his pain firsthand I was eleven years old the night I was awakened by a woman’s screams and the thud of a body slamming into the other side of my bedroom wall. That sound is distinct and sickening, etched into my auditory memory to this day. AnyoneContinue reading “In the Grip Of Rage – Grapevine Article September 2003 by Marc S.”
Clarity – Grapevine Article September 1975 by S.B.
IF YOU HAD to choose one word to describe your sobriety, which would you choose? There are so many marvelous benefits to being sober, but if I had to put it into one word, I would select “clarity.” The meaning of “clarity” has changed slightly. In the seventeenth century, according to the Oxford English Dictionary,Continue reading “Clarity – Grapevine Article September 1975 by S.B.”
Moment of Clarity, Act of Providence – Grapevine Article by Joe C.
He wanted to die because nothing could be worse than the life he was living. But the cop who arrested him had other ideas This particular run has lasted about four and a half years since I picked up that first drink. I had left AA after 11 months of clean time knowing it couldContinue reading “Moment of Clarity, Act of Providence – Grapevine Article by Joe C.”