The Dry Drunk Waltz – Grapevine Article by Julie H.

She learned the dance of anger, frustration, and denial from her father, but replaced it with the sweeter music of AA It wasn’t till my father threw my mother’s mother across the kitchen and broke her arm that he was forced to stop drinking. He had grown up with a very drunk and abusive fatherContinue reading “The Dry Drunk Waltz – Grapevine Article by Julie H.”

Identifying Fear – Daily Reflection July 6th

The chief activator of our defects has been self-centered fear. . . .— TWELVE STEPS AND TWELVE TRADITIONS, p. 76 When I feel uncomfortable, irritated, or depressed, I look for fear. This “evil and corroding thread” is the root of my distress: Fear of failure; fear of others’ opinions; fear of harm, and many otherContinue reading “Identifying Fear – Daily Reflection July 6th”

Finding The Bright Spot Of Our Lives – Big Book Page 89

Practical experience shows that nothing will so much insure immunity from drinking as intensive work with other alcoholics. It works when other activities fail. This is our twelfth suggestion: Carry this message to other alcoholics! You can help when no one else can. You can secure their confidence when others fail. Remember they are veryContinue reading “Finding The Bright Spot Of Our Lives – Big Book Page 89”

A Vision For You – The Problem – Big Book Page 151

For most normal folks, drinking means conviviality, companionship and colorful imagination. It means release from care, boredom and worry. It is joyous intimacy with friends and a feeling that life is good. But not so with us in those last days of heavy drinking. The old pleasures were gone. They were but memories. Never couldContinue reading “A Vision For You – The Problem – Big Book Page 151”

Sharing Our Secrets – Each Day A New Beginning – June 20th

There were deep secrets, hidden in my heart, never said for fear others would scoff or sneer. At last I can reveal my sufferings, for the strength I once felt in silence has lost all its power. —Deidra Sarault There is magic in sharing ourselves with someone else. We learn from Steps Four and FiveContinue reading “Sharing Our Secrets – Each Day A New Beginning – June 20th”

Emotional Pain – Grapevine Article February 1997 by C.H.

Shortly after I came into the Fellowship of Alcoholics Anonymous in November 1984, I remarked to my sponsor that I had no memory of ever before experiencing the feeling that a knife was being slowly twisted in my gut. But I’ve since learned a lot about what causes most of the emotional pain I experience.Continue reading “Emotional Pain – Grapevine Article February 1997 by C.H.”

Alone No More – As Bill Sees It #252

Alcoholism was a lonely business, even though we were surrounded by people who loved us. But when our self-will had driven everybody away and our isolation became complete, we commenced to play the big shot in cheap barrooms. Failing even in this, we had to fare forth alone on the street to depend upon theContinue reading “Alone No More – As Bill Sees It #252”

A Daily Decision – Grapevine Article February 1981 by W.H.

WE MEMBERS of AA do not have a monopoly on feeling uncomfortable. Over and over, I hear my fellows (and me, too, sometimes) lament some “alcoholic” discomfort or other. It seems to me that many of those feelings are not so much alcoholic as they are human. A good example is contained in the promiseContinue reading “A Daily Decision – Grapevine Article February 1981 by W.H.”

This Is Life – Grapevine Article by Shannon C.

Facing life on life’s terms, she asks not what AA can do for her—but what she can do for AA It’d been a couple of weeks since I’d received some overwhelming bad news. Actually, these past couple of years have consisted of one devastating blow after another. Just when I thought I was on theContinue reading “This Is Life – Grapevine Article by Shannon C.”

Sidelined By Remorse – Grapevine Article Sept 2010 by J.M.

After his brother’s suicide, he blames himself and drops out of AA One thing I have learned in AA is that an event that seems insignificant at the time can have monumental effects later. Nothing, it seems, is quite as it seems. Thirty-four years ago I was new in the Fellowship, full of fear, andContinue reading “Sidelined By Remorse – Grapevine Article Sept 2010 by J.M.”