In the chapter , We Agnostics (page 44), the Big Book makes this very hopeful statement for many of us who have struggled to accept the dogma that we may be concerned lies ahead of us to grow spiritually in AA.
We found that God does not make too hard terms with those who seek Him. To us, the Realm of Spirit is broad, roomy, all inclusive; never exclusive or forbidding to those who earnestly seek. It is open, we believe, to all men.
Here are three excellent Grapevine articles that explore this broad highway. Perhaps this can reassure you that accepting the notion that I’m ‘Not God’ can be a powerful and effective starting point to the spiritual journey that lies within AA.